Life & Random Observations

I've got a lot of random things going on in my head lately. Here they are in no particular order (lucky you).

Work: Sucks. I don't like going into a lot of details; just that things are not good right now. I'm so tired and cranky and basically completely fed up. *headdesk*

Parking: I drive to work. I know, I know, I should take the bus, but I HATE the bus. I hate being smushed into a tiny space with the dregs of humanity. However, I hate paying for parking. I got a ticket b/c supposedly they couldn't read my ticket. Um, no. I'm waiting until Friday to pay it and I'm including a note saying why I'm not paying the whole thing. I'm also going to include my stub showing that I HAD paid thankyouverymuch.

Life: Eh...I'm all right. Just tired (again).

Writing: *sigh* It comes and goes. I try to write as much as I can at work. By the time I get home, eat dinner, relax a smidge and THEN think about writing...I got nothin'. I came up with a great scene where Kara (heroine) is trying to call her wolf for the first time in 10 years. It's a heartbreaking scene, but it's also the turning point...or should I say, the start of her relationship with the hero. :)

Friends: I'm kind of fed up with some of them, esp. the ones in real life. I don't know. I think 99% of it is that we're all stressed out and it's kind of taking its toll on all of us. I don't know...I know, that seems to be my mantra tonight.

Halloween: Eh...I'm not a huge fan. I think that stems from being about 10 and being told I couldn't get any candy because I was too old (this was by people I was asking for candy; not my parents). They didn't believe me when I told them I was 10. Kind of soured me on the whole thing. BB's having a party on Saturday night. *sigh* I hate parties. It's just not my cup of tea. All of them end up drunk by the end of the night and that's just not my thing. Plus one of her friends is super competitive with me and ends up going out of her way to one-up me any time I see her. That gets crazy old after a very short amount of time. :(


And that's about it. I just took some sleeping pills, so I hope to sleep well tonight. Orannia, thank you for being there (even when you're just commenting). I really appreciate it. Jana, congrats Auntie (X's 3 now, right?). KB...LOVED your story. Mmm....yummy N&S sexin'. Whoot!

I'm outies. Ciao!

Thinks & Thoughts & Things

So, Thursday morning after basically a week of hell, I decided rather abruptly that I was going to go to the beach this weekend. Thankfully October is the month where I get paid 3 times, so I had a little bit of extra fundage. I called the hotel where I normally stayed, they had a room and I made reservations.

I asked my boss if I could work from 8-4:30 on Friday, but no. So, at 5:30 I skedaddled out of the office, went out to my car and started the 2 hour (and change) drive from Portland to Lincoln City.

It had been raining off and on all day, so I said a little prayer for travelling mercies, sucked it up and drove. Got on I-5, which wasn't that bad. Once you get past...I think it's Wilsonville, the speed limit goes from 55 to 65, so that didn't take long at all. Got into Salem and BAM pitch black. The sun was down and I had to rely on my lights to see where I was going.

Got into Lincoln City around 7:45, went to Kyllos and got some food to go. Drove to my hotel, checked in and PIGGED out! I was so hungry by that point I think I could've eaten raw something. I was starving!

I'd taken Season 1 of Angel with me and watched the first 2 DVD's. I'd forgotten just how much I loved that show. It still kills me that the guy who played Doyle (and whatshisface on Roseanne) killed himself. He was so cute and a great actor. *sad sigh*

I took a sleeping pill and woke up around noon on Saturday. Got up, took a shower and drove over to Safeway to pick up the essentials. Stopped at my favorite little bookstore there and guess what they had? BLAZE OF MEMORY BY NALININ SINGH!!!!! Yes, you heard me right. I let out a shriek I'm sure would've woken the dead and scared the saleslady half to death. lol. I got it and Big Bad Wolf by Christine Warren. Took them back to my hotel room and...I don't know how I had the strength, but I read BBW first. I KNOW!!! But, I was tired, so I took a nap. lol

Read BoM. I'm not sure what I think of it. I'm rereading it again because I think I missed something. My biggest complaint is that I had a hard time connecting with Dev. He's...not a very nice guy. I don't know, maybe I'll change my mind when I finish it again. I just can't believe they had it! The lady there told me that the daughter of the owner had some connections and always gets books in early. All I know is that I'm not complaining. lol

Got up bright and early today. Took off about 10:30 and got home about 1. Took another nap. I've been going thru so much emotional upheaval lately that I'm just physically, emotionally & spiritually exhausted. I KNOW I need to find another job. This job isn't healthy for me anymore. I spend more time wanting to bang my head against a wall than anything else. I'm just tired of it all.

So, that's what's been going on with me. I'm leaving you a picture of the sunset Saturday night. Gorgeous, huh? :) Ciao!

*sigh*

I got a lovely comment from Orannia. I realized I haven't posted in over a week, so decided to rectify the situation. *sigh*

I don't know...I'm kind of going thru some stuff. 99% of it is work-related unfortunately, but what else is new? Work sucks. It'd help if...well, I won't go into it. Let's just say I'm frustrated and annoyed, which I think sums it up quite nicely.

I'm really just bummed out tonight. I think my biggest issue is that I'm exhausted. Tired and need about 800 hours of sleep. :(

My apologies...this is all I've got.

I'll leave you with a "poem" I wrote for this blog project my Mom's doing. It's called Where I'm From. If any of you are intersted in doing it, here's the link to the main site to get the idea. Then it's up to you. If you do DO it, please give me a linky to it. Danke!

I am from good books, from laptops and creativity.

I am from the loving, relaxing peace.

I am from the earth, the cool rain.

I am from table marches and eccentricity, from Dad and Mom and us.

I am from the laughter and deep discussions.

From "you're strong for your age" and "Watch out for your brother."

I am from deep spirituality.

I'm from Washington, from many different nationalities, cinnamon toast, cinnamon rolls.

From the great-aunt with her generosity, her great food, and the love of reading that my grandmother passed down.

I am from the old chest full of memories.

I've Been Thinkin'...

Which is always scary. And just a warning...I have no idea where this bloggie is going to go, so you've been warned.

I was sick all weekend with a killer something-or-other and wasn't able to use my brain much (sad), but was able to read some VERY interesting books. One was the newest Kelley Armstrong and the other was this trippy version of werewolves that I found fascinating. Will have to talk about it some other time.

However, it got me to thinking about my book. I know, shocking. However, I'm struggling to figure out if my book's worth anything. My poor, smacked-up psyche goes thru this all the time. Is my writing any good? Some days I say yes and others? Yeah, not so much. It drives me batty. *sigh*

I need to start getting more consistent in my writing. When I write, I write an insane amount. It's not unusual for me to write between 3500 and 5000 words in one sitting. But (and it's a big but), it doesn't happen every day. Argh! I'm so not consistent and it drives me nuts. I've tried every trick I can think of and then some to try to figure out a way to stay consistent, but it seems to just pass me by. I WILL figure it out though. Here's hoping sooner rather than later.

I'm tired and cranky and...I hate to say it, but I need a vacation. Ha!

Quickie

Sounds so wrong, doesn't it?

I'm just doing a quick fly-by post to say Whazzup and that I hope to have a decent-length bloggy post this weekend. I'm doing double-duty at work this week and I'm seriously lucky my head hasn't exploded yet. 'Tis a miracle.

I've been writing up a storm which is thrilling to say the least and am getting off the interwebs tonight so that I can concentrate on this book. I will WRITE until my head explodes (again).

To all of you I owe emails to or who commented and didn't hear anything back from me (on your bloggies), I haven't forgotten y'all, I'm just insanely busy. Bad work! :(